cum-for-me-satan: all i can think about is kissing you and killing myself
So it’s normal to be jealous of people who kill themselves, right?
I would hurt people if I killed myself. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself with the amount of pain I’d cause. I’d already be dead, so what does it matter? Would I hurt people more or less if I continued hurting people at the same rate I do now for another 50+ years, or if I killed myself now and just hurt the few people that really care for me for a few months, and then...
I thought everything might get better if I got into a good relationship. The first night we did anything sexual I broke down in the middle of it, kicked her out, and cut myself more than I ever have before. I really want to just end things with her, and life, before things get even shittier, like they always do. Fuck.
diamondgirl94: Crossing a street is one of the most triggering things in the life of a suicidal person.
diamondgirl94: I love that moment right before i cut, when my heart is racing and I’m trembling with anticipation.
fading-to-paper-thin: Killing someone make’s you a murderer….i’m killing myself, doesn’t that make me my own murderer? and you’re giving yourself the death penalty, so it all works out!
runningdowntherabbithole: 3 Steps to Numb Alcohol. Pretend you’ve forgotten. More Alcohol. Repeat as needed.
Diamonds are Forever: Cutting produces endorphins... →
diamondgirl94: Cutting produces endorphins and dopamine in the brain. Those chemicals make you calm, relaxed, content and happy. For example; they are produced during sexual stimulation, and for example at orgasm huge amounts of dopamine is released. But those chemicals are also used as the body’s…
things are getting bad again… i just want to run away from everything, see the world, and kill myself when i run out of money
My cuts keep opening upp.. It’s just annoying now, it’s been like 5 hours and they weren’t that deep.. Fuck you
Just tested out a new razor on my wrist instead of my usual thighs. Knowing it’s winter, I didn’t think twice about having long sleeves to cover myself up. However, it’s going to be 68 on friday, and 72 on saturday and sunday, so wearing jackets/sweatshirts/long sleeves is going to be a pain… fuckkkkk
galacticdad: the worst part about depression that’s on again off again is that you can never tell if you’re making progress and actually feeling better or if you just had a couple of good days and the second something goes wrong you’ll be right back where you started.
Me: I want to be happy.
Depression: Shut up you selfish slut. You hurt everyone around you and everyone would have it a lot easier without you and your pathetic little problems.
If this girl ever dies before me, I’ll probably kill myself as soon as I find out about it. There’s only a few comforts left in this world and she’s one of them. The fact that I can just go visit her any time is so nice, and then when she dies, and I kill myself, I’ll be able to visit her anytime as well. A joint suicide with her would be great, but I don’t think she...
runningdowntherabbithole: It’s been awhile since I’ve wanted to die this badly.
threefriendlypeople asked: Hey, you know what I'm thankful for? You. You and the fact that you're alive. -L.H
I need a reason to go to Home Depot so I can get blades. I feel like if I go into the store and get only them, it might raise some questions. Anyone have any suggestions?
92% of my day today was not worth living. The other 8 was okay, but 92 is a lot bigger than 8. When all of my days are like this, I feel like life itself is not worth it. I don’t want to be unhappy and shat on for 92% of my life and put up with that just for the other decent 8%. It’s not worth it.
I just want to stay in bed alone all day. Too bad I can’t :(
I need to get a good razor. I scratched at my skin with a pin today until it almost bled and it felt good. Now I have a mark on my wrist and thigh that is probably going to stay a while, but whatever. If I actually go and get a good razor I’ll have many more marks on my thighs soon :) and they’ll be in a good, well-hidden spot!! :) I can’t have people worrying about me!
Okay, so I saw my girl last night and she helped me out a bit. I know now that I can’t commit suicide anytime soon. I’d like to, but I can’t. It would hurt way too many people and it really isn’t the answer to anything. I am going to get through this and hopefully find some way to enjoy my life.
LOL I got an email from Tumblr about suicide and shit hahaha I’m going to see my girl later. But I won’t kill myself tonight, I promise.
What is the best way to kill yourself? By best, I mean quickest and least painful. Anyone know?
I’m going to see the girl that means the world to me tomorrow. I’m more excited about the prospect of killing ourselves together than I am about actually seeing her. Is that bad? Probably. Oh well. I hope she wants to kill herself too so this can actually happen and she won’t try and convince me not to. I’m also hoping she’ll want to travel the world with me before...
I know exactly how I want to spend the rest of my life. I want to drop out of school and travel the world, going to the most well known cities of Europe, Asia, Australia, and Africa with my Maggie. After that, I’d want us to come back to the Americas, maybe go do a tour of South America also, and finish off with a tour of the USA and Canada. Once we’ve seen almost all of the world,...
I have an appointment with my counselor tomorrow at 11 right after my 9:25 class. When I left him a message the last time I called him I lied and told him I was feeling a lot better so I wouldn’t have to go see additional counseling. I feel bad about it and don’t know how I’m going to lie to his face tomorrow, but I’ll figure it out. I’m a good liar.
I think I want to make it look like an accident. Like maybe I’ll take my girl for a long car ride and happen to drive off a cliff or smash into a tree or something really fast. But I want the effect to be instantaneous like a gunshot to the head or something like that, instead of slow and painful like a car accident might be. Ugh, I don’t know. I need to talk about it with her and see...
threefriendlypeople asked: I don't have to know you to know how amazing you are, and that you deserve life more than anything!
threefriendlypeople asked: No I think you're lovely because you're YOU! You are amazing. Never forget that people care about you <3<3
threefriendlypeople asked: If you get this, I want you to know that you are amazing and even though we might not have ever met I think you're simply lovely. Please know that you deserve life, and please don't kill yourself. EVER. Because you are beautiful and I love you <3<3
I’m going to see my girl next weekend. Hopefully that’s my last weekend on Earth :)
I started seeing a therapist. He’s just the school counselor, but at least I’m talking about everything for once. With my friends, I only tell them the parts that won’t worry them, but with the counselor I really open up. I don’t know if this is a good thing or not, because he’s pressuring me to go see other people too which I really don’t want to do, and I...
I wonder if I could kill myself by jumping off a second story balcony head first. If I knew I would I would do that right now, but I don’t want to end up in a hospital or anything, I just want to die. Maybe I’ll go try and find a higher building on campus I can jump off of.