death is just a part of life

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Mon, 20 May 2013 15:27:31 -0400

cum-for-me-satan: all i can think about is kissing you and killing myself

Tue, 07 May 2013 16:59:15 -0400

cum-for-me-satan:

all i can think about is kissing you and killing myself

So it’s normal to be jealous of people who kill themselves, right?

Fri, 03 May 2013 00:22:00 -0400

So it’s normal to be jealous of people who kill themselves, right?

Logic:

Sun, 14 Apr 2013 21:55:23 -0400

I would hurt people if I killed myself.

I wouldn’t be able to live with myself with the amount of pain I’d cause.

I’d already be dead, so what does it matter?

Would I hurt people more or less if I continued hurting people at the same rate I do now for another 50+ years, or if I killed myself now and just hurt the few people that really care for me for a few months, and then only twice a year(on my birthday and death day)?

These are the questions I think about, and the answers are becoming more cloudy. I don’t know which is the lesser of two evils.

I thought everything might get better if I got into a good relationship. The first night we did...

Sun, 14 Apr 2013 21:39:30 -0400

I thought everything might get better if I got into a good relationship. The first night we did anything sexual I broke down in the middle of it, kicked her out, and cut myself more than I ever have before. I really want to just end things with her, and life, before things get even shittier, like they always do. Fuck.

diamondgirl94: Crossing a street is one of the most triggering things in the life of a suicidal...

Thu, 21 Mar 2013 00:30:10 -0400

diamondgirl94:

Crossing a street is one of the most triggering things in the life of a suicidal person.

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Tue, 05 Mar 2013 13:25:31 -0500

regretnothingalways: My motivation in life.

Wed, 20 Feb 2013 02:01:51 -0500

regretnothingalways:

My motivation in life.

diamondgirl94: And the more that I do this, the more I realize...

Sun, 17 Feb 2013 23:57:13 -0500

diamondgirl94:

And the more that I do this, the more I realize that it’s my favorite thing to do.

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Wed, 13 Feb 2013 19:20:34 -0500

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Sat, 09 Feb 2013 19:22:57 -0500

diamondgirl94: Relapsed. Pretty good too. I love cutting in the...

Fri, 08 Feb 2013 14:54:35 -0500

diamondgirl94:

Relapsed. Pretty good too. I love cutting in the tub, when the blood can mix with the water.

diamondgirl94: I love that moment right before i cut, when my heart is racing and I’m trembling...

Thu, 07 Feb 2013 22:47:17 -0500

diamondgirl94:

I love that moment right before i cut, when my heart is racing and I’m trembling with anticipation.

fading-to-paper-thin: Killing someone make’s you a murderer….i’m killing myself, doesn’t that make...

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 20:26:13 -0500

fading-to-paper-thin:

Killing someone make’s you a murderer….i’m killing myself, doesn’t that make me my own murderer?

and you’re giving yourself the death penalty, so it all works out!

runningdowntherabbithole: 3 Steps to Numb Alcohol. Pretend you’ve forgotten. More Alcohol. Repeat...

Thu, 17 Jan 2013 16:13:47 -0500

runningdowntherabbithole:

3 Steps to Numb

Alcohol.

Pretend you’ve forgotten.

More Alcohol.

Repeat as needed.

Diamonds are Forever: Cutting produces endorphins and dopamine in the brain. Those chemicals...

Thu, 17 Jan 2013 16:02:04 -0500

Diamonds are Forever: Cutting produces endorphins and dopamine in the brain. Those chemicals...:

diamondgirl94:

Cutting produces endorphins and dopamine in the brain.

Those chemicals make you calm, relaxed, content and happy.

For example; they are produced during sexual stimulation, and for example at orgasm huge amounts of dopamine is released.

But those chemicals are also used as the body’s…

things are getting bad again… i just want to run away from everything, see the world, and kill...

Mon, 14 Jan 2013 09:41:38 -0500

things are getting bad again… i just want to run away from everything, see the world, and kill myself when i run out of money

My cuts keep opening upp.. It’s just annoying now, it’s been like 5 hours and they...

Thu, 10 Jan 2013 20:40:01 -0500

My cuts keep opening upp.. It’s just annoying now, it’s been like 5 hours and they weren’t that deep.. Fuck you

Just tested out a new razor on my wrist instead of my usual thighs. Knowing it’s winter, I...

Tue, 08 Jan 2013 22:12:10 -0500

Just tested out a new razor on my wrist instead of my usual thighs. Knowing it’s winter, I didn’t think twice about having long sleeves to cover myself up. However, it’s going to be 68 on friday, and 72 on saturday and sunday, so wearing jackets/sweatshirts/long sleeves is going to be a pain… fuckkkkk

galacticdad: the worst part about depression that’s on again off again is that you can never tell...

Fri, 28 Dec 2012 14:45:58 -0500

galacticdad:

the worst part about depression that’s on again off again is that you can never tell if you’re making progress and actually feeling better or if you just had a couple of good days and the second something goes wrong you’ll be right back where you started.